I am drained.
Seriously drained till that my bones feel tired.
I jus threw 200 punches holdin 5kg weight into the air.
My arms are achin but its not worst tat wad i felt in there.
Slept for 5hrs - 6hrs for 2 days.
Slept at 2 plus yesterday.
Woke up at 7 this morning.
Or shld i say i slept at 2 this morning.
Hmmm.
Poly was tiring as usual.
Cant concentrate though i understand.
It took me like seriously very very long to understand.
My mind cant shift away from her.
Didnt manage to get a look at her.
Or mayb a bit ba?
For less than a min.
Mayb less than 30sec.
Or even 10sec.
Oh well wad is urs is urs.
If it isnt. Either make it urs or jus wait till its urs.
Basketball was alright jus now.
I still suck oh well.
Reach home at 11 feelin really really tired alr.
And i did a stupid 200 punches.
Nvm.
I wanna b drained till the max.
Max max max max max max.
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I am like on my brother's bed now.
My room the tv already cannot make it le.
Most of my family is like overseas.
Daddy and my 2nd brother went to China this morning.
Left me and mummy and I at home.
Such a big house with such little life and everyone got their own rooms.
When was the last time we watch at least a tv show together.
I cant even rmb.
Seriously i rather live in a crampy house at least can see like everyone once?
Sometimes i dun even c my family.
Although only left mummy and I at home with the kids.
I quarrelled with mummy jus now.
Over?
A cup of stupid juice.
I only wanna drink apple and pear.
And she knows i dun drink guava.
She still add it to my juice please.
I am super sensitive to the taste of my food alright?
I noe i noe i very picky over my food.
But i really dun wanna drink ma.
Then tio scolded.
Haiis. Nvm ba.
Talked back and gave up.
Its always my fault.
Oh well.
Hmmmm. School was tiring today.
Very tired. All my energy is like totally drained.
Cant even catch a wink last night.
I went to school an hour earlier.
Mistakin tat lessons start at 9 instead of 10.
Had biochem, organic chem, principles of inorganic and physical chem and maths lec.
And did i mention there was an extra lesson at 6 - 7?
Biochem lec.
I am really drained.
I cant even concentrate in class.
I am losing my focus.
I am dozing off.
I am unable to understand anything.
I am trying very hard.
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Dang it!
But it's alright i will spend more time on revision startin from mayb this sunday?
Got dragonboat this sat.
Hope i get into dragonboat.
I wanna drain myself to the max.
Hopefully.
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I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick I flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me
and I slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the waters starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that once held so much life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness
But why doesn't someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness's grasp?
because no one knows I stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
I don't want to fight anymore
I've given into darkness.
The darkness that drain me of my life.

Today is the second day i blogged.
Hmmm. School was rather pathetic today.
When to school for only 40mins.
And everything ends.
Went to school at like 2pm?
Took a short test and everything ended.
Sian right?
Cause today got no lab.
So left a stupid tutorial for only 1hr.
Hmmm.
After school went to safra to play pool.
As usual the same person went.
Hmmm 1 or 2 more addition though.
Bala, Sanjay, Junfeng, Huikiat, Dorophy, Christina and me?
Yeah should b only us.
The rest when home straight after school.
Nothing special happened i think.
Boring day.
Lols.
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Hi blog. I am feelin rather down again.
Haiis.
I feel so darn lost inside me.
I dunno wad is wrong and i dunno wad to do.
Every day i am missing that person.
But nv seems to get wad i want.
Sometimes talk can end abruptly out of the blue.
And thn gone.
In school cannot b too emo.
Mus try to smile and b a joker trying to make the class laugh.
I feel so tired.
I wanna slp but yet i couldn't ever get a good night rest.
Once i reach home all i can do is jus lie down there.
I dunno who to talk to.
My parents are still busy with work.
My bro-s.
Forget it.
Eldest went to i dunno France or Australia for honeymoon.
My 2nd bro is like i dunno wad the hell is he doin now.
I cant talk to my niece and nephew.
They dun understand.
Haiis. Why cant i have like a pet i could take care of.
At least i think it can understand me.
But still i dunno wad is wrong.
I keep thinkin of tat person or am i thinkin too much.
I dunno.
Argh.
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我在搞笑 藉著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了
還在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麼熬
這麼多年 早就習慣 有你的撒嬌

Lol. I am back to blogging i suppose?
Bear with it i will change the skin update music.
And i will try to consistently update more often.
Hmmm. So many things happened these few days eh?
Was rather disappointed for the last few days.
Hahas. But feel rather better after someone cheered me up.
Sincerely thanks to that special someone.
I wont name who.
He/she will know it himself/herself? =]
My tv is spoilt sia.
Bias tv only can watch History channel the rest cant even watch.
Damn irritating la.
Sian.
Hmmm. Nvm will change a tv soon i hope?
New TV! Yeah!!!
Hahahs.
Oh ya i jus changed my phone.
Errr. To W705.
Hmmm. Cause changed to student plan.
Requirements needed is obviously be a student and err get a new phone?
Smart right.
Like that they earn the plan money and phone money.
Seriously i think they all are seriously very smart luh.
Hahas.
Nvm nvm. Lets talk about poly life ba =]
Poly is seriously quite fun.
My class rocks la.
Hahas.
Lessons were boring but my class luckily got sanjay.
He is the joker of our class.
Followed by me. ._.
Teachers whole day aim me de lor.
Hahas but i dun mind la.
Entertain the whole class can le =]
And i think my class is like super united lor.
Still rmb got once in the first week.
Me sanjay and junfeng was playing basketball.
Weekeng and Zigui watching us.
Suddenly whole class came jus to cheer for us.
Swee right?
Where to find these type of classmates.
Moreover its like only a few days?
Not even close to a week luh.
Hahs. We also went to play pool after school once.
Not the whole class ba.
Hmmm. Lets see.
Hui Kiat, Sanjay, Christina, Weekeng, Dorophy and me.
Christina is our class de super random girl.
Everytime talk is out of the blue and seriously no link. =x
And she is the gong kia.
Tat time ask her.
Play pool win is by gettin the white ball in as the last ball and she actually replied yes.
Lols.
Hmmm. Overall school wasnt tat bad?
Oh ya i joined dragonboat and dance ansemble something like that.
Wanna learn hip hop but i heard is jus power moves.
Hmmm dragonboat can help me keep fit.
These few days i keep thinkin wantin to go NS.
Siao right?
Dunno wad is wrong with me too.

Lols.
Oh ya. I need to find girls.
Sounds wrong right?
No la its because my brother wanna make my family business global le.
And i need a model.
If i am not wrong my brother is paying 10/hr.
Anyone interested send me a pic of urself okay?
Thanks!
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我在搞笑 藉著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了
還在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麼熬
這麼多年 早就習慣 有你的撒嬌
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Lyrics from Show-Gao Xiao.