Today was yet another day to begin with.
I went to help at my parents office today.
Kinda expected that its the only place where there will be "family reunion"
Haiis.
Everyone was there jus like wad i expected to happen.
I am jus thinkin why working is such an important thing.
And not family.
Help out my parents with calculating stuffs.
A lot to do do till my eyes all number.
Very blur already then after tat went home at around 6.
When i reached home 2nd kor was at home but left soon after.
Went for a jog with eldest kor.
Then finish joggin all end up in own room.
He also went out soon after.
Dinner was like..alone again.
When was the last time our family actually ate a dinner where everyone is.
Serious hate this.
Oh well nth much i can do abt it.
Sheesh.
Is money really more important than family.

Hmmm spend the day at home today.
Was suppose to go out but have to stay at home to pray.
So didnt really got out ba?
Steady super sian.
Was thinking about those people with grandparents.
Was prayin to mine today at home.
Kinda miss them a lot though i didnt have a chance to ever see them.
Its like i dunno how to say ba.
I jus got a feeling that if they are around they will say my parents why everyday work.
Is working really tat important.
Important till the fact that family is inferior to it.
Hahas mayb this is jus how i think about it.
Sometimes kinda envy those who got grandparents too.
Some people tend to say tat their grandparents irritating this and that.
But still when they are gone i think you will miss them quite a lot?
So why shouldnt people like cherish them before they are gone.
Oh well like how some quotes came by.
People tend to only treasure things when they lose it.
And.
Absence makes the heart grow fonder.
These are like so very true.
Oh well shalln't say anymore.
Back to watchin my anime.
Bye!

The day has been a bore.
Sian holidays are so dang long la.
Today early in the morning okay not so early.
11am wake up kenna scolded liao basket.
Sian lor but nvm must stay positive.
Oh well dota-ed the whole day plus went out for a jog and train my arms till super ache.
Nvm also whole day is jus super bored.
Okay nvm i also dunno why i am bloggin.
Kor jus bought me my supper was super hungry ._.
Thanks kor -.-?
Hmmm i am wondering this 7 wks how would things progress.
Dunno wad to say and wad can i do abt it.
How to start a conversation out of the blue sia.
Only if she started to msg me jiu hao le.
But sian wad am i thinkin its impossible lols.
Shall go and think wad shld i do tmr.
Tatas!

Wow jus ended a really tough match in dota.
Its jus so coincidental to meet huajie merv pat pork and kenneth.
Won the match.
After exams and its my first match.
Hahas. Goin to start my 2nd one though.
Watchin tv as well.
Emporio Armani Red.
Their gowns are seriously super elegant.
Its jus simply amazing.
Super nice with the blings and the way they were brought together within those fabrics.
Its jus a simply fabric and it is made into such a super amazing gown.
Exams are over like seriously.
BC was alright and maths was totally a disappointment.
Gonna take the freaking sup paper i think?
Sian.
Hmmm after exams today went out with zigui dev woeijiun junfeng kahyun doro to ECP to blade and cycle.
Basket i blade blade blade totally lost touch and i fell twice.
Basket. but not really very pain ba?
Still can take it.
These few days kinda a lot of shocking things happened?
And i knew quite a number of unexpected things.
Oh well. Nvm.
Cant say out these things.
7 weeks of holidays i am so goin to train myself physically.
Gonna run everyday and gym every alternate days.
Yes i should do that.
Reflected on some stuffs though.
Frankly speaking no point gettin sad over some stuffs.
Quarrels are jus part of life to make one stronger so.
I will jus have to accept it and think positive throughout tough times.
7 weeks of holidays i am so goin to train myself physically.
Gonna run everyday and gym every alternate days.
Yes i should do that.

Was supposed to visit CH today.
Its his 1 year death anniversary.
Was suppose to meet the rest at tamp mac at 9.30.
Woke up early but my bro is not back yet.

Waited till around 11.20 like tat but still they haven came back.
Received a message from les saying that dun need to go already.
Sigh feel so...

Then called my bro told them dun need to come back so early le.
Sorry is all that i can say ba.
So up till now i am still alone at home.
For almost 24hrs alr.
So cool uh.
Whole house now belongs to me...
Muhahaha -.-
Its jus so pathetic. Kinda envy those families out there.
Oh well nvm ba hahas.
No breakfast no lunch so i decided to order KFC as my breakfast lunch and dinner.
Lols. Hmmm currently still studyin HAP super boring can.
I am left with reproductive and i will finally be done.
Currently i am thinking more and more of someone.
But...After some conversation its kinda.
Oh well shall not say anymore.
Lols.
Nvm nvm i can do this meng.
Slowly step by step.
Gonna go study finish the stupid reproductive chapter and i am done.
All-so-not-ready for tomorrow's paper.

Haiis today is just another day just like other?
Woke up at 12 since slept at 4 last night.
Really unable to sleep was thinking about some stuff.
I came across this phrase
When you are in love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams
Hmmm was like thinking about wad this phrase really means.
And its kinda true about it.
Hahas.
Oh well nvm about that.
Woke up already told myself i will study at 2 sharp.
So i allowed myself to dota for awhile.
End up play till 4... ._.
Nvm told myself will study again went to look for food and do rubbish.
Ended up went back to dota till 7...
Gave up already so i went to study a bit.
Finish hormones and circulatory sheesh.
4 more chapters to go.
I am feelin hungry now..Sian i wanna go out eat but dunno jio who go -.- 12 am liao.
No one is at home and i am alone...
Big big house small small me lols!
Sometimes i really wonder.
Does a big house really do much to the family?
Some people thinks i am rich and like very happy.
I get wad i want or something like that but...
Such a big house i got like 2 brothers and my parents.
Sometimes dun even c them.
Even though they are at home.
Room big big house big big also no use hahas.
Dinner time is the ONLY chance to eat together but..
MOST of the time is never de la.
All out then left me alone lols.
Kinda think about it rather pathetic.
Seriously i really rather stay at a smaller house at least can see family mmb everyday.
Detesting this large house then cannot do anythin everyone lock themselves in their room.
Doing their own things.
Hmmmm.
Even at home got people also feels like now like tat so quiet.
My life at home machiam me and my tv/com/laptop nia.
So pathetic -.-
Oh well dunno why i saying all this also.
Oh well to those who actually still reads my blog hahas.
At least now you noe abt me more. ._.
Tatas back to studying...
Digestive....Nervous....Excretory....Reproductive...Respiratory systems ._.!

Today's paper kinda screwed up already.
Hmmm i am seriously lazy to say out how i feel so..=]
I dont know but
I think I maybe
Fallin for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
Im scared of what youll say
So Im hiding what Im feeling
But Im tired of
Holding this inside my head

Ive been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Ive been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Im fallin for you

As Im standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
Its just you and me

Im trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
Im scared of what youll say
So Im hiding what Im feeling
But Im tired of
Holding this inside my head

Ive been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Ive been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Im fallin for you

Oh I just cant take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

Ive been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Ive been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Im fallin for you

I cant stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just cant hide it
I think Im fallin for you (x2)

Im fallin for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh Im fallin for you

Wakaos.
I jus wasted one whole fxcking day doing shit.
Was suppose to study at home.
And somehow i took my book out.
I fell aslp.
I went to the table to study and i used the com.
Went back to my bed to study end up...
I watch tv. And wad am i doin now?
I am watching tv watching silent hill.
Nice show i tell you.
Hmmm jus now lend bro $140 now broke.
Lols. Nvm not impt.
His my brother anyway right? hahas.
Meng is really kinda feelin down.
I tot abt myself.
I kinda wanna b tiong xim.
Is tat even possible for me i dunno.
I got so many things to say sia but i dunno how to put it in words.
I jus wanted to b tiong xim just tiong xim on her.
But i dun even noe how to start.
Brothers mayb u guys are right.
I dun have the confidence in myself.
I dun have the confidence to tell her how i feel.
And...
I am afraid she will reject me?
Ahhh wad is wrong with me..
Hmmm confused confused confused. How?
Also dunno.
Wanna message her dunno how to maintain the conversation.
Wanna ask her out also humji -.-
Kaos.
I am so dots lor.
Grrr...
Recently jus say her friend pretty then now wa fxck sia.
Even i myself think i sibei bastard knn.
Ahhhhhhhh!!!!

Hmmm another day passed...
Its like so fast OMG.
Friday is PIPC paper already gosh..
Went to school today at a rather early time.
Cause junfeng personally gave me a morning call.
He didnt noe dun have PIPC lectures.
Haha oh well.
Reached school 1 hour earlier then talked a bit with him and steven.
Lols.
Hmmm biochem tutorial and csas tutorial ba.
Got 16.5 for csas -.-
Rubbish. Hahas.
After school went to watch orphan wif class.
Standard peeps.
WoeiJiun Devina Jingyi HuiKiat Zigui Dorophy.
Was more to a comedy and it is gross i tell you.
Its gross and its actually FCKING funny.
^^V
Those who watch it will understand.
haha was not a too bad show ba.
3.5/5? i suppose?
Hmmm meng is thinkin abt it...
=]

Lols like finally i updated my dead blog.

1 more week then 1 month never update already sia.
Sem test area already reaching and i am so gonna mug hard for it.
Though...There are something i am thinkin on and on.

I feel that i am such a bastard lei.
A bit a bit change change.
Then now..I wanna be serious le.
But issit even possible?
I wanna jio her out on movie but like humji like tat.
Dun dare -.- dun even noe possible or not.
Later kenna rejected jialat sia
Wan start conversation with her also hard.
Kaos.
Issit really lacking the confidence or issit truth that its impossible
Arghhh...
I need some help with this ah! Sian 0.5
Sometimes i jus feel like sendin this msg out to her.
But...
Loving you is such a wonderful feeling
My love for you i find it hard concealing
Since my actions are already so revealing
Your heart, do i stand a chance of stealing?
But still will she believe me...