I am here to blog.
HAP paper is less than 24hrs away.
Must be thinking that i finish studyin and pretty much confident eh?
Lets jus say i am concentrating really well.
However i am concentrating not on my studies.
I am jus simply thinking of her again and again.
Meng wake up man.
She is attached already.
Wake up!!!
Its time for you to give up.
Arghhh.
Wadeva. -.-
I still got 3 large topic that i haven cover.
And nothing is gettin into my head.
Skeletons is so fcking hard.
I haven study muscles as well as nervous system.
ZzzzzZzzzZzZzzZ Sianz.
Went to play dota with ling and jon.
Ps i feed too much make the draft lose.
Really no mood in doing anythin yeah?
Sorry!
I promise the next draft i will perform better and i wont feed that much alr.
My bad.
I shall go back and try studying even if i had to burn through the night.
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Its a super nice song...

Today went back to school to study.
Was so tired that i was late for like almost an hour.
Sorry guys.
Went with err...
Christina, HuiKiat and Weekeng.
Sorry luh.
Was suppose to meet at 11 and i reached at around 12.
Hmmm studied till 3pm. For HAP.
I was so hungry.
No dinner last night and no breakfast.
Last night i totally had no appetite to eat.
So yeah.
Went to the KFC opposite school.
Ate a zinger student meal and left for safra.
Played pool 6 rounds at safra bowling there.
I won twice Huikiat won 4 times.
However, it was hilarious.
Huikiat never really won once.
I scored the black ball with white twice.
And two times i score the black ball making him win.
So he was like begging me to allow him to win a proper match.
And i won him after that.
Dots...
Christina left at like 5?
She was sick.
Hmmm after tat went to billard room for dinner.
Ate the nasi lemak there.
Oh ya did i say tat all 4 of us were sick caused of JunFeng. ._.
All got runny nose but weekeng already recovering.
Huikiat also.
Christina and i was like going to die alr. -.-
Dinner alr went to arcade at TM.
Term test coming still go arcade win liao -.-.
Hmmm a huge zinc bag caught my attention. 60 bucks.
Hmmm. Getting it on this friday.
Went walk walk talk talk at Tamp1.
Stupid HuiKiat keep jiao wei with me.
Idiot u still haven tell me your secret hor.
Dun force me!
Roars.
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Love is seriously fucking blind.

Its gay to put this song but its jus simply nice.

Got back 4 quizzes for my biotech course.
Hmmm.
I got 5 subjects failed none but my score isnt tat good.
HAP (biology) - 18/25
Maths and Stats - 18.5/25
PIPC - 19/25
Organic Chemistry - 22/25
I screwed up Biochemistry MCQ.
Yes its mcq and i screwed up badly.
Sigh...
I am aiming for a GDP of 3.5-4.
Yes i know its high.
But.
I believe i can do it.
I have to lose focus on her.
And concentrate on my studies.
After school went to play basketball with sanjay daryl and junfeng.
Played barefooted.
And i got 4 blisters on my leg.
1 of it is a bloodblister.
Yes i name it myself.
Its like a normal blister but instead of water inside its blood.
Sian.

When there is a will theres a way.
I went to cut my hair to de-emo myself.
I am well prepared to get laugh at tmr.
Today was super high in lessons.
Ps disturb you guys hk bro christina sis wk mei jf bro j bro.
I didnt really get a good rest last night.
You guys know why right?
I promise to make my blog nicer junfeng.
You better promise to read my blog man.
Tagboard etc will b up.
Most prob after term test alright.
Things are really quite sudden.
Bros wad guys said is right mayb i shld let it go.
But it isnt tat easy.
But wad u guys said i will keep it in mine.
This is for you ba.
Dun even thing if u bother to read still but.

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Type until tired.
I shall stop.

I jus finish study half of chapter 2 of PIPC.
So freaking tiring.
Hmmm.
I went for a run with my bro at around 7pm.
Notice i use the word run and not jog.
The back of my lungs hurt after that and i totally lost my appetite for dinner.
I haven not take any food after that.
My head is hurting and i dunno why.
Fuck it.
I am starting to think issit really worth it.
I dont even get a msg from you nor anything.
That shows i means nothing to you i suppose.
Not even on msn.
Some people ask me to jus tell you straight but you alr knew.
What is the point.
Some of them ask me to forget abt it.
But the last time i forget abt it.
It slipped through my fingers.
I seriously jus wonder.

Haiis.
I feel so tired very tired.
Today went to school as usual.
Did CSAS test.
First to finish when i find it so hard -.-.
I think i am screwing up my test.
I cant concentrate to study.
I feel that my level of focusing is seriously dropping behind.
I didnt catch a glimpse of you today.
At least i can see that your happy though you have a lot of work.
Tat is something good ba?
Hmmm after school went to Tamp 1 to meet daddy and mummy.
Accompanied them to dinner.
They going overseas tomorrow morning.
Again ._.
Dined at Imperial Treasure Nan Bei Restaurant.
Food there not that bad.
Hmmm and i bought my phiten Aqua Titan x30.
Its the titanium band that improves blood circulation thing thing.
Hmmm home after that.
And i am studying.
Currently -.-
Okay jus now.
I read one page and i lose focus.
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Today i was like suppose to study.
For the whole day i was like slacking on and on.
My mind is preoccupied with...
Ah dang it.

Today has been a very tiring day for me.
Exercised for like 12hrs ._.
Started Dragonboat training at like 9 till 2?
Did a few push ups squats etc.
Coach was teachin us the proper way to do.
Hmmm thn row-ed for like 10km.
Sadly i wont be in the team for the upcoming race in June.

Too weak...
Hmmm.
I am going to train even harder this week and next work.
Will balance out studies and exercises.
Term test is coming.
After Dragonboat training met up with bear mal heng and aloy play badminton.

Thn at around 5 went to 209 to play Basketball with jiong friends.
Weili raynard pok chow came too.
Play till around 9.
So tats like 12hrs.
Went to eat after bball.
Talked with weili mal and heng while eating.
So many things to talk about quite enjoyable.
And back home.
So tiring.
I still feel so emo.
Haiis.
I still dunno wad to do.
We didnt really talk for a long time.
And yes i do miss you a lot.
I jus dunno if you know or not.
I wanna tell you so many things and i wish we got things to talk abt.
Really regretted not telling you how i felt tat time.
Or else we might be together.
Up till now i dun even dare tell you.
Or should i say i dun even haf a chance to tell you how i felt.
All i know is tat i miss you a lot.
Seriously a lot.
How i wish there would b a bbq at my place and tat you can stay over.
How i wish i could see you upon awakin and cheerin you up when your sad.
Takin care of you if you ever fall sick.
I do wonder if you ever think of me till tat extent.
And i wonder would there b ever a second chance.
Would there?

Haven been blogging for awhile yeah?
Sorry guys.
Ps to those who scolded me for not blogging luh.
Today update liao.
For your info my hair is like super black now.
Compared to normal people who never dye their hair black.
My hair is even blacker okay.
Cause of dragonboat i dye it.
Zai right.
I am motivated to join dragonboat.
I am like putting in raelly 100% lor.
Thanks.
A lot people say look like manga characters on monday.
I am like wtf. ._.
But most people say i look nicer.
But some also say look like boyboy.
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Training was like quite alright ba.
However, Sat tio punish 200 push ups cause got people late.
Hopefully this sat it will b better.
Sat till Tues 4 days 3 days got training.
So tired.
I still feel so emo luh.
Sian.
My test arent doing that well.
I cant concentrate in lectures.
I am not gettin enough rest.
I am gettin sick.
Had 38.9 last night. ._.
I got a lot of time but i am jus lazy.
Making things worst.
2 days has passed and its like not even a message from .....
I feel so sad luh.
Dammit.
I am not motivated to do my homework.
I feel so sian la.
Arghhhhhh!
I shall make this Sunday my planning day.
I promise.
I mus catch up in studies.
Term test coming le.
Its like omgwtfbbq.
So fast.
Haiis.........
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Today's test was alright i think.
Memorize quite a number of "important" stuffs and its not out.
-.-.
Hmmm.
Went for dragonboat training and today's training.
Pretty much tough.
Hmmm.
6 rounds around stadium for warm up.
And around 50 pushups.
30 biceps curl.
Stadium one round.
50 crunches.
Stadium one round.
50 step ups(stadium steps).
Stadium one round.
30 push ups.
Stadium one round.
5 pull ups.
Stadium one round.
All this is jus one set.
Was suppose to do like 5 sets but.
Not enough time so only did like 2 sets.
So i did like.
6.4km 100 crunches 100 step ups 110 pushups 10 pull ups 60 bicep curls.
Hmmm.
Not being sleeping well lately.
Pills are not working so i quit taking it alr.
Gonna train pretty hard for dragonboat.
Hopefully i can get in.
Studies are still manageable.
Dragonboat training will be on Mondays Tuesdays and Saturdays.
Hmmm. Currently in team Alpha.
Hopefully will b able to get in and join the regattas tat is coming up quite soon.
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This is a pretty nice song.
But...

You made my night.

Back from dragonboat training.
So tiring.
Today was still doing the test thingy.
But as for warm up as usual 2.4 and 20 push ups.
Back to the test thingy.
After tat tio punish for not being discipline.
As in some other people luhs.
And 100 pumping.
My neck is aching badly.
Seriously damn bad.
Started from like last wednesday test thingy.
Did the squats with weights.
40 each side which means 80kg in total.
I think i injured it.
Haiis.
Nvm ba. Jus see how things goes first.
Went to school this morning and everyone was like asking me.
What happen why so emo.
Sry guys. My bad.
I jus feel sad cause...
over ..... luhs.
You guys know luhs right?
No secret among us de.
2 plus i aint better though i am laughing.
Dun wan u guys to keep tryin to cheer me up.
Very sry.
But i am still not alright.
Haiis.
Hope tomorrow will b a better day.
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Happy mother's day to all mothers out there.
Went for Dragonboat training today.
Nothing much happened.
Went home to study.
And went for dinner.
Jus got back nothing much ba.
Not being sleeping well lately and i feel so tired.
I feel so sad lately.
So emo.
Got to put a mask in front of everybody.
And smile.
I feel so tired doing it already.
But i jus cant emo in front of thm.
My class knows me for being such a crappy person.
Oh well.
Haiis.
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i miss someone but sigh..

Jus finished lunch.
Came back from dragonboat training.
Wasnt that tough.
Did 3 rounds around the stadium and jogged on the spot for around 15mins.
Learnt something like a cheer?
Thn went to Bedok Reser for rows.
It was so different from orientation row and regatta.
Did a total of 4km.
Kinda easy ba?
Dun think training will b that tough now.
Shall study for quizzes coming up this coming week
Haiis.
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I am lost in my world of questions and answers.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside..
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

[Chorus]
Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross your mind
When we're hangin spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last,
Last forever, forever

[Chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away x5

Life is like a deck of cards.
You only get one chance to get one card at one time.
Once its gone.
Its almost impossible to get it back.

I jus tot abt the past.
When i was away in the US.
Those imy messages that i got from you.
It made my day even i dun see you.
I feel so happy thn.
And those 2 nights that we talked over the phone.
Till rather late.
Up till now.
I dun get it anymore.
Am i thinkin too much.
I just wanna tell her i love her a lot.
How i wish i could talk to her till late night again.
And get those messages from her.
But it never seems to happen.
And it seems like no matter wad i do.
Its not happening...

I jus came back from Tampines 1.
Went there for dinner after sch.
With chua and les.
Hmmm.
Dine at the jap place at lvl 3 i think.
Took a bus and thought abt some things.
I jus wonder wad shld i do.
Shld i or not.
Shld i do this or shld i do tat.
Hmmm.
So confusing.
And i dunno issit even possible.
I jus keep thinkin and thinkin.
Over the same things.
Sigh...
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Today's trainin was not really trainin ba.
Jus tryin to gauge how much each individual can do?
I sprain my wrist doin a 60kg lift.
It still hurts quite a bit ba.
I am still a bit sad for so reason.
Tmr will b a better day i hope.
I really hope so...

I got no mood to say anything le.
This song alone will express how i feel.

A sudden change.
Things are fated.
Once you lose it.
Its over.

School was so-so today.
My name was circled during HAP class.
Cause i was like sleeping.
Oh wadeva.
Until dragonboat!
Its amazing i tell you.
But everythin i do i keep thinkin of tat someone.
Indeed 2.4km was a warm up.
Hmmm.
I shall say all the things we did.
2.4 - 50 push ups - water break - 10counts for leg raises - 20 counts for leg raises - 20 push ups - 30 counts for leg raises - 30 counts for leg raises (coach counting) - around 100 counts of half-squats - jumping jacks (almost 200 times) - finger squishing action the sicko one 120 times - squats again - 150m sprint - 100m duck walk ( squating and walking ) - 100m jump squats - 20 push ups - 60 steps ( stadium huge steps)
I think i cover everything le something like tat.
Cant even remember de la.
Roar.
So tired but i do le i feel happy for myself.
Cause i tot can go find tat someone after training.
Who knows in the end after the training.
Took the valuables.
Called tat someone and in the end.
Cannot.
X.X
Oh well. Nvm its alright.
Soon soon.
Hmmm i shall go and lie down and do nothing.
Wait till something happens then i go and slp.
=]
Bye!

Went out today to bugis area.
I was rather happy seriously.
But at the same time i feel sad.
I really do feel that way.
But i cant be sad.
I cant.
I have to be happy.
I have to smile and laugh.
I got so many things i wanna say.
I got so many things i wanna do.
So many things to clarify.
All i could do is jus guess.
But wad if i am wrong.
I alr made a mistake by listenin to wad others tell me to.
But do i go wif my feelings this time?
Is my feelings right?
Issit correct?
Damn it.
I really wish it would b more obvious.
I wanna noe the truth.
But yet its so hard and impossible.
I miss her now.
A lot i really miss her a lot a lot.
I cant message her.
I dunno wad to say.
Haiis.
How i wish i get a message from her.
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I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside..
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

[Chorus]
Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross your mind
When we're hangin spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last,
Last forever, forever

[Chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away x5

Fifth post on my new blog.
Which is known to a few people only.
Hmmm.
Woke up at like 6 today?
Had a fever of 39.4.
Do i have like swine flu?
Hmmm. Nah.
Today was yet another nothing-special-happened day.
I slept at like 2 last night?
Haiis.
Jus cant even slp properly these few days.
Went to school at 2.15pm.
Met marcus and went to school together for the dragonboat.
The orientation row was alright.
Played whacko, dog and bone and some carry person game.
I was the carrier cause i was one of the bigger size one -.-
Hmmm went to bedok reser and row till 5.30 from 4.30 i think.
Accidents happen.
Other team boat crash into ours.
Luckily no one was injured.
Soon after went back home with marcus.
Heard dragonboat trainin will b super tough.
Monday alr have trainin and will b "tegan" alr.
2.4km run = warm up.
Amazed? Nah.
I will jus drain my body out of everything possible.
And i am still sick dammit.
38.9.
Sheesh...
I miss someone..
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