Jus finish 3 rounds of mahjong with bear,weetong, teck and huikiat.
Lost overall 2 bucks.
Nvm ba at least was a little not tat sad for a short period of time.
Oh well.
Last night went out with sis-in-law and bro.
Off to Le Bar at chinatown there.
Hmmm played dai di, dice mahjong and 5-10.
Dai di got win got lose.
Dice mahjong was something new but was fun.
Can say win most of the time.
Seriously lucky.
5-10 lose like shit.
Sis-in-law is super fast la.
Make me drink like...
Basket.
Hmmm on the way back told her and kor abt some stuff.
They told me a lot of things already.
Felt a lot better after tat.
Though i am still waiting up till now.
For a decent reply.
Oh well.
On the way back went to buy mashed potato and green tea and wanton mee.
Lols.
Ate at home and continue drinking at home with them.
Continued talking with one more of kor's friend.
Hmmm after tat played 2 person mahjong with da sao.
Basket i lost 260 -.-.
Oh well nvm ba.
I got so many feelings inside me after what many people have told me.
Shall go think abt some stuff already.
Nights peeps.

Am really disappointed over some stuff.
Thinking why things have to go to this way.
And reach to such a point.
I really dunno wad to say and wad to do alr.
Used to have something to be happy about but oh well.
Since its alr like this i cant really do anything much.
Might be going out with bro and sis-in-law later.
To where i still dunno.
Hope it will be how i hope and wished it will be ba.

To that someone who keep stalking my blog for so long.
Thanks a lot la hor.
Hahas.
No tagboard bo bian have to post here.
She is a good person.
I promise to treat her well if not u can chop me.
Let u chop till many pieces also can.
And its not erxin its loving can.
Lols.
Today has been a long day.
Came back like at 2am.
Been cab-bing quite a lot.
Dear knows why.
And yes basket i am broke cause of cab -.-
Spend $60 tat day jus on cab.
Ah jialat.
Hmmm morning was suppose to meet dear at 10 and yes i overslpt till 12.
Ps.
Meet her at around 1plus and headed to vivo reachin at around 2.
Was suppose to catch a movie at 1.40 but..
Hmmm ate ben and jerry and bought one for woei jiun.
Super hilarious.
Hmmm then walked around and bought food at around 4.30 before accompanyin her to work.
Started work at 5 and i slacked at the shop with her till she ended work.
Closin shop tat die dear is super blur can -.-
Rush till so jialat then keep forgettin things.
Hmmm caught i love you beth cooper.
Not tat bad ba?
But movie seems rather short like very fast finish.
Mayb cause we were late like 20mins?
Hmmm went for mee pok at tamp 400++
Send dear home after tat.
Shall go and slp now.
=]

Wa steady la uber sian.
Should have go st james with dear.
Didnt go cause i was tired.
But oh well.
Now she is there i also cannot slp.
Her phone died worried like shit -.-...
Hopefully she is alright over there -.-...
Dumb me.
I miss her sia.
Oh well.
Worked recently helped out with parents with accounting.
Do till uber sian also.
Number number whole day number.
Morning will send dear to work and i go work.
I end work i will go fetch her from work and send her home.
Days were spent these way for pass 2 days.

Basket now only 7.17 according to my com time.
Wtf i cannot even slp.
Slept at 4.20 like tat and now i cant go back to slp.
Lols. Dunno why.
Dots. Suppose to wake up at 9 for some stuff but.
Oh well shall wait till 9.
Shall go dota lols.
Came to blog since i am bored.
Ahhh shit it.
3hrs of slp ._.

Went out early today to cut my hair.
Will say my hair is currently alright.
Soon after cab-ed down to tampines inter.
Would be late if i took a bus there.
Met huikiat and liansheng and took 72 to yiochukang.
When for a pool training course.
Everything was alright i suppose.
Got to know my proper stance but still.
My accuracy worsen no idea why but will slowly improve on that.
Wrote a poem on something.
Shall blog it out.
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I want you to know.
Deep in my heart is where you'll stay.
Each and everyday.
Now, forever, and always.
I want you to know.
That i'll always be there.
To show you how much i care.
I'll never let you down.
I'll do anything to keep away your frown.
I want you to know.
How much you mean to me.
You're my eyes to see,
My heart to beat, and my air to breathe,
Without you, there is no me.
It's all these things,
I want you to know.
That it all comes to one thing.
I love you.
And thats all.

Today was yet another day to begin with.
I went to help at my parents office today.
Kinda expected that its the only place where there will be "family reunion"
Haiis.
Everyone was there jus like wad i expected to happen.
I am jus thinkin why working is such an important thing.
And not family.
Help out my parents with calculating stuffs.
A lot to do do till my eyes all number.
Very blur already then after tat went home at around 6.
When i reached home 2nd kor was at home but left soon after.
Went for a jog with eldest kor.
Then finish joggin all end up in own room.
He also went out soon after.
Dinner was like..alone again.
When was the last time our family actually ate a dinner where everyone is.
Serious hate this.
Oh well nth much i can do abt it.
Sheesh.
Is money really more important than family.

Hmmm spend the day at home today.
Was suppose to go out but have to stay at home to pray.
So didnt really got out ba?
Steady super sian.
Was thinking about those people with grandparents.
Was prayin to mine today at home.
Kinda miss them a lot though i didnt have a chance to ever see them.
Its like i dunno how to say ba.
I jus got a feeling that if they are around they will say my parents why everyday work.
Is working really tat important.
Important till the fact that family is inferior to it.
Hahas mayb this is jus how i think about it.
Sometimes kinda envy those who got grandparents too.
Some people tend to say tat their grandparents irritating this and that.
But still when they are gone i think you will miss them quite a lot?
So why shouldnt people like cherish them before they are gone.
Oh well like how some quotes came by.
People tend to only treasure things when they lose it.
And.
Absence makes the heart grow fonder.
These are like so very true.
Oh well shalln't say anymore.
Back to watchin my anime.
Bye!

The day has been a bore.
Sian holidays are so dang long la.
Today early in the morning okay not so early.
11am wake up kenna scolded liao basket.
Sian lor but nvm must stay positive.
Oh well dota-ed the whole day plus went out for a jog and train my arms till super ache.
Nvm also whole day is jus super bored.
Okay nvm i also dunno why i am bloggin.
Kor jus bought me my supper was super hungry ._.
Thanks kor -.-?
Hmmm i am wondering this 7 wks how would things progress.
Dunno wad to say and wad can i do abt it.
How to start a conversation out of the blue sia.
Only if she started to msg me jiu hao le.
But sian wad am i thinkin its impossible lols.
Shall go and think wad shld i do tmr.
Tatas!

Wow jus ended a really tough match in dota.
Its jus so coincidental to meet huajie merv pat pork and kenneth.
Won the match.
After exams and its my first match.
Hahas. Goin to start my 2nd one though.
Watchin tv as well.
Emporio Armani Red.
Their gowns are seriously super elegant.
Its jus simply amazing.
Super nice with the blings and the way they were brought together within those fabrics.
Its jus a simply fabric and it is made into such a super amazing gown.
Exams are over like seriously.
BC was alright and maths was totally a disappointment.
Gonna take the freaking sup paper i think?
Sian.
Hmmm after exams today went out with zigui dev woeijiun junfeng kahyun doro to ECP to blade and cycle.
Basket i blade blade blade totally lost touch and i fell twice.
Basket. but not really very pain ba?
Still can take it.
These few days kinda a lot of shocking things happened?
And i knew quite a number of unexpected things.
Oh well. Nvm.
Cant say out these things.
7 weeks of holidays i am so goin to train myself physically.
Gonna run everyday and gym every alternate days.
Yes i should do that.
Reflected on some stuffs though.
Frankly speaking no point gettin sad over some stuffs.
Quarrels are jus part of life to make one stronger so.
I will jus have to accept it and think positive throughout tough times.
7 weeks of holidays i am so goin to train myself physically.
Gonna run everyday and gym every alternate days.
Yes i should do that.

Was supposed to visit CH today.
Its his 1 year death anniversary.
Was suppose to meet the rest at tamp mac at 9.30.
Woke up early but my bro is not back yet.

Waited till around 11.20 like tat but still they haven came back.
Received a message from les saying that dun need to go already.
Sigh feel so...

Then called my bro told them dun need to come back so early le.
Sorry is all that i can say ba.
So up till now i am still alone at home.
For almost 24hrs alr.
So cool uh.
Whole house now belongs to me...
Muhahaha -.-
Its jus so pathetic. Kinda envy those families out there.
Oh well nvm ba hahas.
No breakfast no lunch so i decided to order KFC as my breakfast lunch and dinner.
Lols. Hmmm currently still studyin HAP super boring can.
I am left with reproductive and i will finally be done.
Currently i am thinking more and more of someone.
But...After some conversation its kinda.
Oh well shall not say anymore.
Lols.
Nvm nvm i can do this meng.
Slowly step by step.
Gonna go study finish the stupid reproductive chapter and i am done.
All-so-not-ready for tomorrow's paper.

Haiis today is just another day just like other?
Woke up at 12 since slept at 4 last night.
Really unable to sleep was thinking about some stuff.
I came across this phrase
When you are in love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams
Hmmm was like thinking about wad this phrase really means.
And its kinda true about it.
Hahas.
Oh well nvm about that.
Woke up already told myself i will study at 2 sharp.
So i allowed myself to dota for awhile.
End up play till 4... ._.
Nvm told myself will study again went to look for food and do rubbish.
Ended up went back to dota till 7...
Gave up already so i went to study a bit.
Finish hormones and circulatory sheesh.
4 more chapters to go.
I am feelin hungry now..Sian i wanna go out eat but dunno jio who go -.- 12 am liao.
No one is at home and i am alone...
Big big house small small me lols!
Sometimes i really wonder.
Does a big house really do much to the family?
Some people thinks i am rich and like very happy.
I get wad i want or something like that but...
Such a big house i got like 2 brothers and my parents.
Sometimes dun even c them.
Even though they are at home.
Room big big house big big also no use hahas.
Dinner time is the ONLY chance to eat together but..
MOST of the time is never de la.
All out then left me alone lols.
Kinda think about it rather pathetic.
Seriously i really rather stay at a smaller house at least can see family mmb everyday.
Detesting this large house then cannot do anythin everyone lock themselves in their room.
Doing their own things.
Hmmmm.
Even at home got people also feels like now like tat so quiet.
My life at home machiam me and my tv/com/laptop nia.
So pathetic -.-
Oh well dunno why i saying all this also.
Oh well to those who actually still reads my blog hahas.
At least now you noe abt me more. ._.
Tatas back to studying...
Digestive....Nervous....Excretory....Reproductive...Respiratory systems ._.!

Today's paper kinda screwed up already.
Hmmm i am seriously lazy to say out how i feel so..=]
I dont know but
I think I maybe
Fallin for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
Im scared of what youll say
So Im hiding what Im feeling
But Im tired of
Holding this inside my head

Ive been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Ive been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Im fallin for you

As Im standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
Its just you and me

Im trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
Im scared of what youll say
So Im hiding what Im feeling
But Im tired of
Holding this inside my head

Ive been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Ive been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Im fallin for you

Oh I just cant take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

Ive been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Ive been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I dont know what to do
I think Im fallin for you
Im fallin for you

I cant stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just cant hide it
I think Im fallin for you (x2)

Im fallin for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh Im fallin for you

Wakaos.
I jus wasted one whole fxcking day doing shit.
Was suppose to study at home.
And somehow i took my book out.
I fell aslp.
I went to the table to study and i used the com.
Went back to my bed to study end up...
I watch tv. And wad am i doin now?
I am watching tv watching silent hill.
Nice show i tell you.
Hmmm jus now lend bro $140 now broke.
Lols. Nvm not impt.
His my brother anyway right? hahas.
Meng is really kinda feelin down.
I tot abt myself.
I kinda wanna b tiong xim.
Is tat even possible for me i dunno.
I got so many things to say sia but i dunno how to put it in words.
I jus wanted to b tiong xim just tiong xim on her.
But i dun even noe how to start.
Brothers mayb u guys are right.
I dun have the confidence in myself.
I dun have the confidence to tell her how i feel.
And...
I am afraid she will reject me?
Ahhh wad is wrong with me..
Hmmm confused confused confused. How?
Also dunno.
Wanna message her dunno how to maintain the conversation.
Wanna ask her out also humji -.-
Kaos.
I am so dots lor.
Grrr...
Recently jus say her friend pretty then now wa fxck sia.
Even i myself think i sibei bastard knn.
Ahhhhhhhh!!!!

Hmmm another day passed...
Its like so fast OMG.
Friday is PIPC paper already gosh..
Went to school today at a rather early time.
Cause junfeng personally gave me a morning call.
He didnt noe dun have PIPC lectures.
Haha oh well.
Reached school 1 hour earlier then talked a bit with him and steven.
Lols.
Hmmm biochem tutorial and csas tutorial ba.
Got 16.5 for csas -.-
Rubbish. Hahas.
After school went to watch orphan wif class.
Standard peeps.
WoeiJiun Devina Jingyi HuiKiat Zigui Dorophy.
Was more to a comedy and it is gross i tell you.
Its gross and its actually FCKING funny.
^^V
Those who watch it will understand.
haha was not a too bad show ba.
3.5/5? i suppose?
Hmmm meng is thinkin abt it...
=]

Lols like finally i updated my dead blog.

1 more week then 1 month never update already sia.
Sem test area already reaching and i am so gonna mug hard for it.
Though...There are something i am thinkin on and on.

I feel that i am such a bastard lei.
A bit a bit change change.
Then now..I wanna be serious le.
But issit even possible?
I wanna jio her out on movie but like humji like tat.
Dun dare -.- dun even noe possible or not.
Later kenna rejected jialat sia
Wan start conversation with her also hard.
Kaos.
Issit really lacking the confidence or issit truth that its impossible
Arghhh...
I need some help with this ah! Sian 0.5
Sometimes i jus feel like sendin this msg out to her.
But...
Loving you is such a wonderful feeling
My love for you i find it hard concealing
Since my actions are already so revealing
Your heart, do i stand a chance of stealing?
But still will she believe me...

I wonder should i even post abt this.
Hmmm oh well since i am alr here why not?
I am startin to doubt 2 particular friends.
I seriously wonder am i even a friend to you.
If i am not then dun bother askin me out.
And after that givin excuses when i ask you out.
Is this even wad you do to your friend eh?
Oh well.
Nvm i shall stop here.
The actions you guys do seriously gross me out.
=]
Hmmmm its like 1am alr gotta wake up at 7am ltr.
CSAS test is ltr too.
Movie-ing with huikiat and the girls etc.
I think so.
Hmmm lols.
Shall try to slp now.
Hopefully i can ><
In parents room now.
My tv spoil again so i am here.
Arghh.
Parents room aircon also spoil sian.
Very hot!! Slp meng slp!

Sian ah!
Okay i just finish my project.
As in my part of the project and i feel very tired.
These few days not being slping well.
Hmmm i dunno why.
Monday went to play pool with class people =]
Taught dev and jingyi how to play and they are rather fast learners.
Hui Kiat taught them too.
JF and WK were there too so as woeijiun and kahyun.
But the 2 latters didnt play they went back at 4++
Hmmm i am gettin crazy over something or rather someone.
I wonder friday how sia.
Sian.
Lols.
I am getting sick again zzz.
Many of my bros say go for it lei.
Sian la i dunno how sia.
Sheesh...
Oh ya and i cutted my hair.
LOLS.
My hair looks sucky now and i feel so sian abt it.
I think it sucks i wonder issit to others.
Sian la!

What the hell?
Am i jus a tool for u to vent ur angers on?
Am i ur son or wad?
Not like i dun wanna help u make up ur wireless connection on ur com wad.
Is i really dunno how to and i didnt ever see anything like it before.
Later i make spoil u blame me.
I say i dunno and ask u to call the person who knows how to.
You dun wan then u jus scold me.
Wad is this.
Say i disturb other people.
Not like i want to wad.
Plus do i look like i know everything in the world.
I mus do this do that.
Everythin mus be flawless.
I tried studying hard make u all happy.
Wad was ur reply from you when i told u my results.
Oh okay. Good lor.
I got tat as a reply.
Hello i studied till 4am plus even though its jus a freaking dumb term test.
Wadeva luh.
Last night play mahjong also wrong.
Dont i have my own freedom to do things?
Is not like i play every single day tat i neglected my studies?
I really dunno wad is wrong luhs.
Argh.

Roars.
I am back to blogging.
I feel so tired.
I feel so sian to blog. -.-
But tio scolded again.
So...Lols.
Okay nvm recently watch transformers 4 times alr.
The show is jus simply awesome.
Lose my cool today due to project.
Aiming to be top 10% in my own diploma so i can the CDS that i want.
Though that means i got 1 more extra subject.
Need to get new clothes if not sure gg.
Dota also sian.
I wan new games to play but dunno play wad.
Err.
And i think i got a secret but i shall not say.
Hahahs though somebody might know.
But i keep denying lols!
xP
Shall not say anymore hahahas.

Woots i scored 49/50 for my maths.
Haven really see it but everyone told me i did get it.
Lost one mark due to Significant figures.
How significant it is.
Hahas.
Wad a pun lols!
Anyway today during biochem Lloyd was really cool man.
Hahas.
He actually asked me to go to year 2 Biochem and i have to ask them how to do a 5x / 10x / 50x serial dilution on thursday.
And if anyone of them who doesnt know i am suppose to teach them.
._.
Lols. I dunno wad to do abt it.
Did a practice run during the end of the lesson.
Wasn't that bad i suppose ._.
Hmmm Congrats to Bro wish you bai tou tao lao.
Hahas.
Today its the official day that you are named husband Lee.
And Joan todays your surnamed changed to Lee worhs.
Hahs!
Enjoy!

Okay luh okay luh.
Came to blog le alright!
Never blog for 2 weeks liao.
Ps luh.
Was addicted to one piece and never really bother to update my blog.
Then tio gan by **********.
Sorry la alright.
I update now update update.
Hmmm during holidays went to sentosa twice.
Once with Hengfu etc.
Second time with class people.
Got some serious sunburns.
Hmmm also got go out with mummy.
Go shopping but nv buy clothes.
Err still got ton overnight for mahjong twice.
Still got movie.
Yeap yeap.
Jus owned in a clan match jus now well done to Jon, Raph, Monkey and Nico!
Hmmm. Oh ya.
There is this bitch who create an acc for me in facebook and its not me alright.
Although she has my picture.
And i noe who is tat fxcking bitch.
For ur info bitch _l_ off.
And tat call i got from ur special friend?
You can kindly ask him to fxck off too =]
Tat person who created tat acc is not me =]
17 years old alr still dunno how to grow up lols!
I got nothing to say.
Anyways.
I got no facebook acc.
So yeah. =]
Tatas!

Its gay gay gay gay gay.
2 am and i am still studying.
Everyday study study study.
I am going to be a lifeless idiot already.
Sheesh.
Functional Groups of OC is killing me and i am still not slping.
Dammit.
I am goin to b really tired soon!
Roars.
Shall go back to study.
Came to take a short break lols.
Really short... ._.

Fuck la.
Stupid PIPC i made a sickening mistake and there goes my 20marks.
Hopefully they give me method marks.
Haiis. Its so sad luh.
Argh...
How to get a high GPA.
Nvm nvm concentrate on other subjects.
I have to do well in OC and maths alr.
My biochem is gone already.
So i have no choice.
Haiis

Today was HAP paper.
The paper was alright ba?
I am aiming for a 40+/50 at LEAST.
I have to do well and i will!
A promise made to myself.
Plus i mugged till 4.30am this morning.
Hopefully my efforts paid off.
Gonna study for PIPC.
Hmmm dun be sad alright.
Cheer up and concentrate on other subjects.
Bu yao qi nei.
Good luck...

I am here to blog.
HAP paper is less than 24hrs away.
Must be thinking that i finish studyin and pretty much confident eh?
Lets jus say i am concentrating really well.
However i am concentrating not on my studies.
I am jus simply thinking of her again and again.
Meng wake up man.
She is attached already.
Wake up!!!
Its time for you to give up.
Arghhh.
Wadeva. -.-
I still got 3 large topic that i haven cover.
And nothing is gettin into my head.
Skeletons is so fcking hard.
I haven study muscles as well as nervous system.
ZzzzzZzzzZzZzzZ Sianz.
Went to play dota with ling and jon.
Ps i feed too much make the draft lose.
Really no mood in doing anythin yeah?
Sorry!
I promise the next draft i will perform better and i wont feed that much alr.
My bad.
I shall go back and try studying even if i had to burn through the night.
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Its a super nice song...

Today went back to school to study.
Was so tired that i was late for like almost an hour.
Sorry guys.
Went with err...
Christina, HuiKiat and Weekeng.
Sorry luh.
Was suppose to meet at 11 and i reached at around 12.
Hmmm studied till 3pm. For HAP.
I was so hungry.
No dinner last night and no breakfast.
Last night i totally had no appetite to eat.
So yeah.
Went to the KFC opposite school.
Ate a zinger student meal and left for safra.
Played pool 6 rounds at safra bowling there.
I won twice Huikiat won 4 times.
However, it was hilarious.
Huikiat never really won once.
I scored the black ball with white twice.
And two times i score the black ball making him win.
So he was like begging me to allow him to win a proper match.
And i won him after that.
Dots...
Christina left at like 5?
She was sick.
Hmmm after tat went to billard room for dinner.
Ate the nasi lemak there.
Oh ya did i say tat all 4 of us were sick caused of JunFeng. ._.
All got runny nose but weekeng already recovering.
Huikiat also.
Christina and i was like going to die alr. -.-
Dinner alr went to arcade at TM.
Term test coming still go arcade win liao -.-.
Hmmm a huge zinc bag caught my attention. 60 bucks.
Hmmm. Getting it on this friday.
Went walk walk talk talk at Tamp1.
Stupid HuiKiat keep jiao wei with me.
Idiot u still haven tell me your secret hor.
Dun force me!
Roars.
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Love is seriously fucking blind.

Its gay to put this song but its jus simply nice.

Got back 4 quizzes for my biotech course.
Hmmm.
I got 5 subjects failed none but my score isnt tat good.
HAP (biology) - 18/25
Maths and Stats - 18.5/25
PIPC - 19/25
Organic Chemistry - 22/25
I screwed up Biochemistry MCQ.
Yes its mcq and i screwed up badly.
Sigh...
I am aiming for a GDP of 3.5-4.
Yes i know its high.
But.
I believe i can do it.
I have to lose focus on her.
And concentrate on my studies.
After school went to play basketball with sanjay daryl and junfeng.
Played barefooted.
And i got 4 blisters on my leg.
1 of it is a bloodblister.
Yes i name it myself.
Its like a normal blister but instead of water inside its blood.
Sian.

When there is a will theres a way.
I went to cut my hair to de-emo myself.
I am well prepared to get laugh at tmr.
Today was super high in lessons.
Ps disturb you guys hk bro christina sis wk mei jf bro j bro.
I didnt really get a good rest last night.
You guys know why right?
I promise to make my blog nicer junfeng.
You better promise to read my blog man.
Tagboard etc will b up.
Most prob after term test alright.
Things are really quite sudden.
Bros wad guys said is right mayb i shld let it go.
But it isnt tat easy.
But wad u guys said i will keep it in mine.
This is for you ba.
Dun even thing if u bother to read still but.

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Type until tired.
I shall stop.

I jus finish study half of chapter 2 of PIPC.
So freaking tiring.
Hmmm.
I went for a run with my bro at around 7pm.
Notice i use the word run and not jog.
The back of my lungs hurt after that and i totally lost my appetite for dinner.
I haven not take any food after that.
My head is hurting and i dunno why.
Fuck it.
I am starting to think issit really worth it.
I dont even get a msg from you nor anything.
That shows i means nothing to you i suppose.
Not even on msn.
Some people ask me to jus tell you straight but you alr knew.
What is the point.
Some of them ask me to forget abt it.
But the last time i forget abt it.
It slipped through my fingers.
I seriously jus wonder.

Haiis.
I feel so tired very tired.
Today went to school as usual.
Did CSAS test.
First to finish when i find it so hard -.-.
I think i am screwing up my test.
I cant concentrate to study.
I feel that my level of focusing is seriously dropping behind.
I didnt catch a glimpse of you today.
At least i can see that your happy though you have a lot of work.
Tat is something good ba?
Hmmm after school went to Tamp 1 to meet daddy and mummy.
Accompanied them to dinner.
They going overseas tomorrow morning.
Again ._.
Dined at Imperial Treasure Nan Bei Restaurant.
Food there not that bad.
Hmmm and i bought my phiten Aqua Titan x30.
Its the titanium band that improves blood circulation thing thing.
Hmmm home after that.
And i am studying.
Currently -.-
Okay jus now.
I read one page and i lose focus.
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Today i was like suppose to study.
For the whole day i was like slacking on and on.
My mind is preoccupied with...
Ah dang it.

Today has been a very tiring day for me.
Exercised for like 12hrs ._.
Started Dragonboat training at like 9 till 2?
Did a few push ups squats etc.
Coach was teachin us the proper way to do.
Hmmm thn row-ed for like 10km.
Sadly i wont be in the team for the upcoming race in June.

Too weak...
Hmmm.
I am going to train even harder this week and next work.
Will balance out studies and exercises.
Term test is coming.
After Dragonboat training met up with bear mal heng and aloy play badminton.

Thn at around 5 went to 209 to play Basketball with jiong friends.
Weili raynard pok chow came too.
Play till around 9.
So tats like 12hrs.
Went to eat after bball.
Talked with weili mal and heng while eating.
So many things to talk about quite enjoyable.
And back home.
So tiring.
I still feel so emo.
Haiis.
I still dunno wad to do.
We didnt really talk for a long time.
And yes i do miss you a lot.
I jus dunno if you know or not.
I wanna tell you so many things and i wish we got things to talk abt.
Really regretted not telling you how i felt tat time.
Or else we might be together.
Up till now i dun even dare tell you.
Or should i say i dun even haf a chance to tell you how i felt.
All i know is tat i miss you a lot.
Seriously a lot.
How i wish there would b a bbq at my place and tat you can stay over.
How i wish i could see you upon awakin and cheerin you up when your sad.
Takin care of you if you ever fall sick.
I do wonder if you ever think of me till tat extent.
And i wonder would there b ever a second chance.
Would there?

Haven been blogging for awhile yeah?
Sorry guys.
Ps to those who scolded me for not blogging luh.
Today update liao.
For your info my hair is like super black now.
Compared to normal people who never dye their hair black.
My hair is even blacker okay.
Cause of dragonboat i dye it.
Zai right.
I am motivated to join dragonboat.
I am like putting in raelly 100% lor.
Thanks.
A lot people say look like manga characters on monday.
I am like wtf. ._.
But most people say i look nicer.
But some also say look like boyboy.
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Training was like quite alright ba.
However, Sat tio punish 200 push ups cause got people late.
Hopefully this sat it will b better.
Sat till Tues 4 days 3 days got training.
So tired.
I still feel so emo luh.
Sian.
My test arent doing that well.
I cant concentrate in lectures.
I am not gettin enough rest.
I am gettin sick.
Had 38.9 last night. ._.
I got a lot of time but i am jus lazy.
Making things worst.
2 days has passed and its like not even a message from .....
I feel so sad luh.
Dammit.
I am not motivated to do my homework.
I feel so sian la.
Arghhhhhh!
I shall make this Sunday my planning day.
I promise.
I mus catch up in studies.
Term test coming le.
Its like omgwtfbbq.
So fast.
Haiis.........
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Today's test was alright i think.
Memorize quite a number of "important" stuffs and its not out.
-.-.
Hmmm.
Went for dragonboat training and today's training.
Pretty much tough.
Hmmm.
6 rounds around stadium for warm up.
And around 50 pushups.
30 biceps curl.
Stadium one round.
50 crunches.
Stadium one round.
50 step ups(stadium steps).
Stadium one round.
30 push ups.
Stadium one round.
5 pull ups.
Stadium one round.
All this is jus one set.
Was suppose to do like 5 sets but.
Not enough time so only did like 2 sets.
So i did like.
6.4km 100 crunches 100 step ups 110 pushups 10 pull ups 60 bicep curls.
Hmmm.
Not being sleeping well lately.
Pills are not working so i quit taking it alr.
Gonna train pretty hard for dragonboat.
Hopefully i can get in.
Studies are still manageable.
Dragonboat training will be on Mondays Tuesdays and Saturdays.
Hmmm. Currently in team Alpha.
Hopefully will b able to get in and join the regattas tat is coming up quite soon.
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This is a pretty nice song.
But...

You made my night.

Back from dragonboat training.
So tiring.
Today was still doing the test thingy.
But as for warm up as usual 2.4 and 20 push ups.
Back to the test thingy.
After tat tio punish for not being discipline.
As in some other people luhs.
And 100 pumping.
My neck is aching badly.
Seriously damn bad.
Started from like last wednesday test thingy.
Did the squats with weights.
40 each side which means 80kg in total.
I think i injured it.
Haiis.
Nvm ba. Jus see how things goes first.
Went to school this morning and everyone was like asking me.
What happen why so emo.
Sry guys. My bad.
I jus feel sad cause...
over ..... luhs.
You guys know luhs right?
No secret among us de.
2 plus i aint better though i am laughing.
Dun wan u guys to keep tryin to cheer me up.
Very sry.
But i am still not alright.
Haiis.
Hope tomorrow will b a better day.
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Happy mother's day to all mothers out there.
Went for Dragonboat training today.
Nothing much happened.
Went home to study.
And went for dinner.
Jus got back nothing much ba.
Not being sleeping well lately and i feel so tired.
I feel so sad lately.
So emo.
Got to put a mask in front of everybody.
And smile.
I feel so tired doing it already.
But i jus cant emo in front of thm.
My class knows me for being such a crappy person.
Oh well.
Haiis.
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i miss someone but sigh..

Jus finished lunch.
Came back from dragonboat training.
Wasnt that tough.
Did 3 rounds around the stadium and jogged on the spot for around 15mins.
Learnt something like a cheer?
Thn went to Bedok Reser for rows.
It was so different from orientation row and regatta.
Did a total of 4km.
Kinda easy ba?
Dun think training will b that tough now.
Shall study for quizzes coming up this coming week
Haiis.
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I am lost in my world of questions and answers.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside..
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

[Chorus]
Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross your mind
When we're hangin spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last,
Last forever, forever

[Chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away x5

Life is like a deck of cards.
You only get one chance to get one card at one time.
Once its gone.
Its almost impossible to get it back.

I jus tot abt the past.
When i was away in the US.
Those imy messages that i got from you.
It made my day even i dun see you.
I feel so happy thn.
And those 2 nights that we talked over the phone.
Till rather late.
Up till now.
I dun get it anymore.
Am i thinkin too much.
I just wanna tell her i love her a lot.
How i wish i could talk to her till late night again.
And get those messages from her.
But it never seems to happen.
And it seems like no matter wad i do.
Its not happening...

I jus came back from Tampines 1.
Went there for dinner after sch.
With chua and les.
Hmmm.
Dine at the jap place at lvl 3 i think.
Took a bus and thought abt some things.
I jus wonder wad shld i do.
Shld i or not.
Shld i do this or shld i do tat.
Hmmm.
So confusing.
And i dunno issit even possible.
I jus keep thinkin and thinkin.
Over the same things.
Sigh...
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Today's trainin was not really trainin ba.
Jus tryin to gauge how much each individual can do?
I sprain my wrist doin a 60kg lift.
It still hurts quite a bit ba.
I am still a bit sad for so reason.
Tmr will b a better day i hope.
I really hope so...

I got no mood to say anything le.
This song alone will express how i feel.

A sudden change.
Things are fated.
Once you lose it.
Its over.

School was so-so today.
My name was circled during HAP class.
Cause i was like sleeping.
Oh wadeva.
Until dragonboat!
Its amazing i tell you.
But everythin i do i keep thinkin of tat someone.
Indeed 2.4km was a warm up.
Hmmm.
I shall say all the things we did.
2.4 - 50 push ups - water break - 10counts for leg raises - 20 counts for leg raises - 20 push ups - 30 counts for leg raises - 30 counts for leg raises (coach counting) - around 100 counts of half-squats - jumping jacks (almost 200 times) - finger squishing action the sicko one 120 times - squats again - 150m sprint - 100m duck walk ( squating and walking ) - 100m jump squats - 20 push ups - 60 steps ( stadium huge steps)
I think i cover everything le something like tat.
Cant even remember de la.
Roar.
So tired but i do le i feel happy for myself.
Cause i tot can go find tat someone after training.
Who knows in the end after the training.
Took the valuables.
Called tat someone and in the end.
Cannot.
X.X
Oh well. Nvm its alright.
Soon soon.
Hmmm i shall go and lie down and do nothing.
Wait till something happens then i go and slp.
=]
Bye!

Went out today to bugis area.
I was rather happy seriously.
But at the same time i feel sad.
I really do feel that way.
But i cant be sad.
I cant.
I have to be happy.
I have to smile and laugh.
I got so many things i wanna say.
I got so many things i wanna do.
So many things to clarify.
All i could do is jus guess.
But wad if i am wrong.
I alr made a mistake by listenin to wad others tell me to.
But do i go wif my feelings this time?
Is my feelings right?
Issit correct?
Damn it.
I really wish it would b more obvious.
I wanna noe the truth.
But yet its so hard and impossible.
I miss her now.
A lot i really miss her a lot a lot.
I cant message her.
I dunno wad to say.
Haiis.
How i wish i get a message from her.
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I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside..
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

[Chorus]
Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross your mind
When we're hangin spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last,
Last forever, forever

[Chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know..

Do you ever think when your all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cuz I try and try to walk away,
But I know this crush ain't goin away x5

Fifth post on my new blog.
Which is known to a few people only.
Hmmm.
Woke up at like 6 today?
Had a fever of 39.4.
Do i have like swine flu?
Hmmm. Nah.
Today was yet another nothing-special-happened day.
I slept at like 2 last night?
Haiis.
Jus cant even slp properly these few days.
Went to school at 2.15pm.
Met marcus and went to school together for the dragonboat.
The orientation row was alright.
Played whacko, dog and bone and some carry person game.
I was the carrier cause i was one of the bigger size one -.-
Hmmm went to bedok reser and row till 5.30 from 4.30 i think.
Accidents happen.
Other team boat crash into ours.
Luckily no one was injured.
Soon after went back home with marcus.
Heard dragonboat trainin will b super tough.
Monday alr have trainin and will b "tegan" alr.
2.4km run = warm up.
Amazed? Nah.
I will jus drain my body out of everything possible.
And i am still sick dammit.
38.9.
Sheesh...
I miss someone..
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I am drained.
Seriously drained till that my bones feel tired.
I jus threw 200 punches holdin 5kg weight into the air.
My arms are achin but its not worst tat wad i felt in there.
Slept for 5hrs - 6hrs for 2 days.
Slept at 2 plus yesterday.
Woke up at 7 this morning.
Or shld i say i slept at 2 this morning.
Hmmm.
Poly was tiring as usual.
Cant concentrate though i understand.
It took me like seriously very very long to understand.
My mind cant shift away from her.
Didnt manage to get a look at her.
Or mayb a bit ba?
For less than a min.
Mayb less than 30sec.
Or even 10sec.
Oh well wad is urs is urs.
If it isnt. Either make it urs or jus wait till its urs.
Basketball was alright jus now.
I still suck oh well.
Reach home at 11 feelin really really tired alr.
And i did a stupid 200 punches.
Nvm.
I wanna b drained till the max.
Max max max max max max.
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I am like on my brother's bed now.
My room the tv already cannot make it le.
Most of my family is like overseas.
Daddy and my 2nd brother went to China this morning.
Left me and mummy and I at home.
Such a big house with such little life and everyone got their own rooms.
When was the last time we watch at least a tv show together.
I cant even rmb.
Seriously i rather live in a crampy house at least can see like everyone once?
Sometimes i dun even c my family.
Although only left mummy and I at home with the kids.
I quarrelled with mummy jus now.
Over?
A cup of stupid juice.
I only wanna drink apple and pear.
And she knows i dun drink guava.
She still add it to my juice please.
I am super sensitive to the taste of my food alright?
I noe i noe i very picky over my food.
But i really dun wanna drink ma.
Then tio scolded.
Haiis. Nvm ba.
Talked back and gave up.
Its always my fault.
Oh well.
Hmmmm. School was tiring today.
Very tired. All my energy is like totally drained.
Cant even catch a wink last night.
I went to school an hour earlier.
Mistakin tat lessons start at 9 instead of 10.
Had biochem, organic chem, principles of inorganic and physical chem and maths lec.
And did i mention there was an extra lesson at 6 - 7?
Biochem lec.
I am really drained.
I cant even concentrate in class.
I am losing my focus.
I am dozing off.
I am unable to understand anything.
I am trying very hard.
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Dang it!
But it's alright i will spend more time on revision startin from mayb this sunday?
Got dragonboat this sat.
Hope i get into dragonboat.
I wanna drain myself to the max.
Hopefully.
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I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick I flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me
and I slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the waters starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that once held so much life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness
But why doesn't someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness's grasp?
because no one knows I stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
I don't want to fight anymore
I've given into darkness.
The darkness that drain me of my life.

Today is the second day i blogged.
Hmmm. School was rather pathetic today.
When to school for only 40mins.
And everything ends.
Went to school at like 2pm?
Took a short test and everything ended.
Sian right?
Cause today got no lab.
So left a stupid tutorial for only 1hr.
Hmmm.
After school went to safra to play pool.
As usual the same person went.
Hmmm 1 or 2 more addition though.
Bala, Sanjay, Junfeng, Huikiat, Dorophy, Christina and me?
Yeah should b only us.
The rest when home straight after school.
Nothing special happened i think.
Boring day.
Lols.
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Hi blog. I am feelin rather down again.
Haiis.
I feel so darn lost inside me.
I dunno wad is wrong and i dunno wad to do.
Every day i am missing that person.
But nv seems to get wad i want.
Sometimes talk can end abruptly out of the blue.
And thn gone.
In school cannot b too emo.
Mus try to smile and b a joker trying to make the class laugh.
I feel so tired.
I wanna slp but yet i couldn't ever get a good night rest.
Once i reach home all i can do is jus lie down there.
I dunno who to talk to.
My parents are still busy with work.
My bro-s.
Forget it.
Eldest went to i dunno France or Australia for honeymoon.
My 2nd bro is like i dunno wad the hell is he doin now.
I cant talk to my niece and nephew.
They dun understand.
Haiis. Why cant i have like a pet i could take care of.
At least i think it can understand me.
But still i dunno wad is wrong.
I keep thinkin of tat person or am i thinkin too much.
I dunno.
Argh.
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我在搞笑 藉著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了
還在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麼熬
這麼多年 早就習慣 有你的撒嬌

Lol. I am back to blogging i suppose?
Bear with it i will change the skin update music.
And i will try to consistently update more often.
Hmmm. So many things happened these few days eh?
Was rather disappointed for the last few days.
Hahas. But feel rather better after someone cheered me up.
Sincerely thanks to that special someone.
I wont name who.
He/she will know it himself/herself? =]
My tv is spoilt sia.
Bias tv only can watch History channel the rest cant even watch.
Damn irritating la.
Sian.
Hmmm. Nvm will change a tv soon i hope?
New TV! Yeah!!!
Hahahs.
Oh ya i jus changed my phone.
Errr. To W705.
Hmmm. Cause changed to student plan.
Requirements needed is obviously be a student and err get a new phone?
Smart right.
Like that they earn the plan money and phone money.
Seriously i think they all are seriously very smart luh.
Hahas.
Nvm nvm. Lets talk about poly life ba =]
Poly is seriously quite fun.
My class rocks la.
Hahas.
Lessons were boring but my class luckily got sanjay.
He is the joker of our class.
Followed by me. ._.
Teachers whole day aim me de lor.
Hahas but i dun mind la.
Entertain the whole class can le =]
And i think my class is like super united lor.
Still rmb got once in the first week.
Me sanjay and junfeng was playing basketball.
Weekeng and Zigui watching us.
Suddenly whole class came jus to cheer for us.
Swee right?
Where to find these type of classmates.
Moreover its like only a few days?
Not even close to a week luh.
Hahs. We also went to play pool after school once.
Not the whole class ba.
Hmmm. Lets see.
Hui Kiat, Sanjay, Christina, Weekeng, Dorophy and me.
Christina is our class de super random girl.
Everytime talk is out of the blue and seriously no link. =x
And she is the gong kia.
Tat time ask her.
Play pool win is by gettin the white ball in as the last ball and she actually replied yes.
Lols.
Hmmm. Overall school wasnt tat bad?
Oh ya i joined dragonboat and dance ansemble something like that.
Wanna learn hip hop but i heard is jus power moves.
Hmmm dragonboat can help me keep fit.
These few days i keep thinkin wantin to go NS.
Siao right?
Dunno wad is wrong with me too.

Lols.
Oh ya. I need to find girls.
Sounds wrong right?
No la its because my brother wanna make my family business global le.
And i need a model.
If i am not wrong my brother is paying 10/hr.
Anyone interested send me a pic of urself okay?
Thanks!
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我在搞笑 藉著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉
我受不了
還在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麼熬
這麼多年 早就習慣 有你的撒嬌
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Lyrics from Show-Gao Xiao.